Friday, September 27, 2013

close friends.


believe it or not: people always have different  'comfortable zone'. i mean not every people like what we like and not every people dislike what we dislike. well .. just saying. i know everyone knew that already -_-"

maybe thats the reason why people always have close friends. friends that makes them feel comfortable to be with. i think it's normal. nothing is wrong with that but sometimes i see some people are too over. they make a group and it's just like -she/he is my friend. u're not- to the others. kinda unfair..right ? but ofcourse not everyone like that. i also have close friends but i'll always welcome to everyone who want to be my friends :)

i didnt mean to judge anyone. i just want to write what i thought. i know everyone have their own reason. maybe it's just like what i said before..about the 'comfortable zone'. that u just feel comfortable to be with some people only.

yet we still dont know how they're actually. however we cant really know how a person is..if we never try to know, right ? just like the sentence : "tak kenal maka tak sayang." c:


"u cant force loyalty. some people will always let u down.
everybody wont always be who u want to be.
they're true to who they want to be true.
they're loyal to who they want to be loyal to.
it's all about choices."
-unknown-

Sunday, September 8, 2013

5 centimeters per second.



hey..it's 5 centimeters per second.

huh ? what ?

the velocity of a cherry blossom petal when it falls..5 cm per second.

akari .. u know a trivial thing like that ?

it's looks like snow..doesnt it ?

is that so ?

takaki .. i hope that we can watch the cherry blossoms together next year too
...

AKARI


sincerely although the days continue to be cold, i hope that u're well.
snow has fallen here several times. since the weather is snowy, i go to school with heavy equipment.
tokyo is still not snowing yet right ? i watch the weather forecast for tokyo too.
i was surprised when i realized where u're moving.
although we're accustomed being transferred, i really didnt expected the place to be kagoshima. this time it's so far away ..
when i think that our distance will become so far away that even by train it cant be reached, it makes me a little bit lonely ..

i hope that takaki-kun is always healthy.
im happy and looking forward to our promise from the 4th of march.
one year has passed since then .. it makes me nervous.
near my house, there's a big cherry blossom tree.
maybe at spring..the petals will fall at the felocity 5 centimeters per second.
i hope that takaki-kun is arrives along with spring.
at the promised time..i'll wait for u at 7 o'clock in the station's waiting room.

...

sometimes..things will not turn out like what we plan.

TAKAKI


starting at noon..it was snowing on the day i promised akari.
im so nervous because i'll meet akari soon.

the air is heavy..it makes me feel like this town has snowed for ages. it's so cold.
until that moment i had not calculated that the train would be delayed.
my anxiety is growing.

the distance from station to station is unbelivable far.
the train sttoped for an unbelivable period of time at each station.
i think akari is feel so anxiety right now..because the time of our meeting has passed.
akari..please go home now.

...

the strength of love..make we faith to wait even in a long time.


at this moment..i feel as if i know where eternity..heart and soul are.
i feel that i understand the meaning of living for 13 years.
then instantly, i feel unbreable sadness.
i dont know how to treat and where to bring akari's warmth and soul.
i know that in the end .. we cant always be together.
our future looks big for now but it's limited by time.
everything is happening without anything we can do. but .. my anxiety is melting little by little.
and only one thing is left..that is akari's soft lips.


i cant confess that i lost the letter adressed to akari.
the time before and after that kiss .. i feel that all of the world has changed because of it.
i strongly pray that i have the power to protect her.
thinking like that..im always watching the scenery outside the window ..



...

but no matter how strong the love is..love cant be together if the destiny say so.

SUMITA

 
i fell in love with him during my second year of primary high school and want to go the same high school as him.
i somehow passed the high school exam through hard work.
even so .. when i see his figure, i begin to like him more.
it's so scary and everyday is so painful. but im happy when i meet him.
i just cant do anything about it.

when i come to his place, deep inside my heart begins to ache a bit.

he's so kind. sometimes it makes me feel like crying.

...

sometimes humans always look for something that so far without realize something near them.


i understand why he looks different from other people.
at the same time, i understand that he never looks at me.
because of that .. i didnt say anything to him that day.

he's kind..very kind. but he's always .. looking at something so far that i cant see ..

my wish wont be granted. even so .. i like him after today..the day after tomorrow .. forever.


 TAKAKI

just by living .. the sadness has pilled up.
in the sheets dried by the sun. the tootbrush in the bedroom. and the ringtone in my cellphone.

during the past few years i just kept moving forward..wanting something.
this feeling that i get .. almost feels life threatening.
i just kept working without knowing where this feeling is coming from.
it was painful for me when i realized that my heart looses motivation as the days pas by.
one day .. when i realized that the feeling i took seriously vanished and when i reached my limits .. i retired for my job.

yesterday i saw a dream. a dream about the past.
in that dream .. we were still 13 years old. and we are in a wide..snowy..empty field.
the lights that come from the house look dimmed and so far away.
only our track are on the road that passes by us.
with that scenery .. someday we will see the cherry blossom together ..


--the end--

a beautiful sad story.
this story taught me that not every people that love each other can always be together.
and not every feeling even it's so strong..can be conffesed.


:')