i stand in front of the mirror and wipe the fog away
my vision is still hazy
from ridding my self this way
my hair is all in tangles
my eyes are filled with tears
i wipe the warm tears away
as if trying to rid myself of my tears
im ashamed of what i have done
but it hurts me even more
i can't make myself stop doing it
eventhough i know what's in store
it has taken over my mind
it is eating away at my soul
my throat burns with anger
while my stomach growls even more
im still looking in the mirror
yet i don't know who i see ?
all that i know,
is this sad sight couldn't be me ?
i grip the edge of the counter,
so tightly that my knuckles turn white
i want to scream out in anger !
at this ugly sight
it's your fault i hate !
that i do this to myself
if only you didn't look this way
i would be in better health
i cover the image in the mirror
with the palm of my hand
and notice a cut on my finger
that i never knew i had
i grab my hand in anger
or is it more like fright
im just so shocked to see this sight
i laugh and then i cry
then crumble to the floor
suddenly aware of my problem
like i never was before
how did this happen to me ?
how did i become a satistic ?
i though that i was strong
i though i was better than that
my head throbs in anger
my throat burns with pain
my finger loses a drop of blood
and nothing is what i have gained
i did this all
because i really missing you
i hope you will come back again
my loving ranmaru ..
this is the poem that jasmine made for me after ranmaru leave me :')
