my first novel~! :D

im soooooooooooooo happy~ finally the novel which i wrote ady the end~! >O< *claps* fufu~
it's my first novel >_<

the tittle of my novel is 'Crying Soul'. it's about two people who's love each other but cant be together..well that's a sad story. urmmm actually the story of that novel is mine..it's almost same with my love story..hhehe

i love writing..i really love writing. it's my dream to be a famous writer~i hope that my dream will be come true~ although i know im still must learn for that~ ganbatte~! >.<

SHINee - The Name I Loved.

 

ROMAJI

soni siryeowa sarangui gieogi chagapge dagawa

aryeoonda ijeneun deo isang neoreul bujeonghago sipji anheun nareul algo itjiman

gakkai inneun neol saranghal su eomneungeol algo itgie

nal barabol su eomneun neol gidarimi neomu himdeureo

ijen gyeondil su eobseo irwojil su eopgie

naega saranghaetdeon geu ireum

bulleoboryeo nagalsurok neomu meoreojyeotdeon

geu ireum ijen jeogeonoko na ulmeogyeo

nae ane sumgo sipeojyeo

neol saranghal subakke eobseotdeon

geu nareul ijen arajwoyo

irul su eomneun sarangdo saranginikka

honja hal su eomneun sarangiran neukkimeun naege dagawa

sijak hal su do eomneun geuriumdeureun keojyeoman gago

sirin gaseum han kyeonen neoui hyanggiman nama

naega saranghaetdeon geu ireum

bulleoboryeo nagalsurok neomu meoreojyeotdeon

geu ireum ijen jeogeonoko na ulmeogyeo

nae ane sumgo sipeojyeo

neol saranghal subakke eobseotdeo

geu nareul ijen arajwoyo

irul su eomneun sarangdo saranginikka

sucheon beoneul dorikyeo cheoeumui naro gan sungane

gaseum han guseoge da asagal ne moseubin geol

naega saranghaetdeon geu ireum

bulleoboryeo nagalsurok neomu meoreojyeotdeon

geu ireum ijen jeogeonoko na ulmeogyeo

nae ane sumgo sipeojyeo

neol saranghal subakke eobseotdeon

geu nareul ijen arajwoyo

irul su eomneun sarangdo saranginikka

irul su eomneun sarangdo saranginikka

 TRANSLATION

both hands trembles as i remembered the cold love memories

now it is getting weirder, i dont wish to reject you, but i just know that

no matter how close we are, i know that i cant love you anymore

i cant miss you; waiting for you makes me tired

i cant endure anymore and i cant realize this

the name i loved once in this life

has becoming further and further away from me

i am writing your name on a paper and forever kept it in my heart

from that day i only realized that i will only loved you forever

love that cant be together can also be known as love

i cant handle the love memories and feelings alone

i cant start this, i can only miss you secretly in my heart

my heart only left your body fragrance that i missed and always loved

the name i loved once in this life

has becoming further and further away from me

i am writing your name on a paper and forever kept it in my heart

from that day i only realized that i will only loved you forever

love that cant be together can also be known as love

kept remembering the first time i saw you walking towards me

and stolen an edge of my heart without noticing

the name i loved once in this life (loved once in this life)

has becoming further and further away from me

i am writing your name on a paper and forever kept it in my heart

from that day i only realized that i will only loved you forever

eventhough it is not long, but my love for you will never change

 the name i loved once in this life

has becoming further and further away from me

i am writing your name on a paper and forever kept it in my heart

from that day i only realized that i will only loved you forever

like a star.

made this poem for ranmaru :)

..

he's like a star ..
can shine brightly on the sky ..
make the nite sky being beautiful with his soft shine ..
and accompany me everytime im sad or feel alone ..
because everytime i see the stars i feel calm ..
and make me realize that my life will be so dark without stars ..
the stars never go anywhere ..
always in the sky .. always in my heart ..
eventhough sometimes the stars didn't appear on the sky but i know he always there ..
because maybe he's hide behind the cloud ..
just like a star .. he's so far from here ..
even if i try to run to catch him .. but i still can't catch him ..

maybe me and him just can be together in dream ..

:')

..

an empty heart.

now i'm feel empty
i'm not sad,, not cry,, but also not feel happy ..
my heart is feel empty ..

maybe because i'm feel lonely .. not because i'm 'alone' here .. many people with me but i just feel alone..i mean it's like i'm feel alone in the crowd place..i just don't know why (?) :'(

now i'm feel like want to cry..i want to run away to the place that so far from here ..
hope this empty feeling also will run away from me .. =.=`

excited ^w^

yesterday i'm so happy~ i spent my time to go out with my friends,, ao-chan and kao-chan~ xD

first,, we all went to the book store..hunting book~ huehehe
i want to buy novel and comic,, all novel and comic there is so nice ~ huaaa i'm feel like want to buy that all but can't so i need to choose some book only =m=
finally i choose a novel and a comic,, the title of that novel is "the queen must die"

after that we went to the cinema and watch "harry potter and the deathly hallows part 2" :D
it's so coool~ it's the last story of harry potter ne~ im gonna miss it T^T

then we go to school for extacurricular japanese club,, have meeting there with all senpai and kouhai ._.
then we back home at 17.00 pm from school,, fufufu so tired but fun nee :)

a stranger in the mirror is me ..

 

i stand in front of the mirror and wipe the fog away

my vision is still hazy

from ridding my self this way

my hair is all in tangles

my eyes are filled with tears

i wipe the warm tears away

as if trying to rid myself of my tears

im ashamed of what i have done

but it hurts me even more

i can't make myself stop doing it

eventhough i know what's in store

it has taken over my mind

it is eating away at my soul

my throat burns with anger

while my stomach growls even more

im still looking in the mirror

yet i don't know who i see ?

all that i know,

is this sad sight couldn't be me ?

i grip the edge of the counter,

so tightly that my knuckles turn white

i want to scream out in anger !

at this ugly sight

it's your fault i hate !

that i do this to myself

if only you didn't look this way

i would be in better health

i cover the image in the mirror

with the palm of my hand

and notice a cut on my finger

that i never knew i had

i grab my hand in anger

or is it more like fright

im just so shocked to see this sight

i laugh and then i cry

then crumble to the floor

suddenly aware of my problem

like i never was before

how did this happen to me ?

how did i become a satistic ?

i though that i was strong

i though i was better than that

my head throbs in anger

my throat burns with pain

my finger loses a drop of blood

and nothing is what i have gained

i did this all

because i really missing you

i hope you will come back again

my loving ranmaru ..

this is the poem that jasmine made for me after ranmaru leave me :')

comet~

alone, i looked towards the sky and saw a comet, although the burst suddenly vanished in a moment ..

my heart becomes hurt with thoughts of you

right now i want to be with you, but i can't leap the skies so ..

maybe if i could become a comet,

i could leap through the skies to you

whatever kind of tomorrow comes, since a comet is always unbreakable,

this feeling is strong

i don't like it when it rains. when it was dimmed out,

i remember what you said, even now

"in the night sky, after the rain, beautifully, the stars appear."

considering that, i've come to like the rain too

maybe if i could become a comet,

the overflowing light will fall

so whenever times are sad, the you who looks to the night sky

will come to smile and, like the comet, want to shine more

what are you always fighting with on your own ?

being by your side is something i can't do but ..

maybe if i could become a comet,

i could leap through the skies to you

surely, without fail i'd reach you in this moment of light

and your now illuminated sky will revolve

If i could become a comet,

surely, I would rise by your side

whenever the time ..

(Younha - Houki Boshi)

i cant swim T^T

well..maybe it's embarrasing for me to tell you all if....................i can't swim ~! >w< lol
i ady 16 y/o but i can't swim =.=` if you ask why..there's no answer because i also don't know why x'D
that's not what i want..because actually i really very want to swim but i just can't~ x3

when i was a child my dad teached me how to swim..but i still can't..hhaha

huaaa~ sometimes i'm so envy with the people who can swim..T^T
they looks so happy when swim..i've a friend who really like to swim..he said that swim is really fun and can make you not stress..lol i mean if you swim you can feel relax~ :3
envy envy envy >3<

and what's i hate the most is when i must get score for my sport lesson in my school with swimming..haih~
teacher~! i can't swim la~ how to get a score ? +_+
but i can't do anything..i must get the score, so i'll come to swim =.=` but i just play the water at there..hhaha~ then my teacher will scold me...........T^T............lol

like today~ i must go to the swimming pool for my sport lesson..today was so embarrased..almost all of my friends can swim but i'm not =.=`
actually, not just me who can't swim...some of my friends can't swim too :p
but still shy la~

aaa~ T^T

100 Truths About Lee Hong Ki xD

hello readers~ :p
now i just want to tell you all 100 truths about hongki oppa ^ ^~
maybe some of you ady read this before..but i just want to share it again :p
the answer is really from him. just check it out (y)

001. Name: Lee Hongki
002. Birthday:March 2, 1990
003. Location: Gyonggido Gwangju
004. Bloodtype: AB
005. Weight & Height: 56kg, 176cm
006. Favourite Food: Samgyetang [chicken + ginseng soup]
007. Food you dislike: Capsicum / green pepper
008. Person you like: Her
009. Favourite Music Genre: Punk
010. Celebrity you hate: dont have one
011. Your 18th song: i used to have a lot but now i dont remember
012. First love : had one
013. First kiss : 3rd Year of Junior High
014. TV Program you often watch: M Countdown
015. Favourite Flower: dont have one
016. First place you look on the opposite sex?: Chest (dont think of me weirdly)
017. Favourite hairstyle on the opposite sex? : Natural
018. Eye sight: 0.1
019. Age you want to get married: 32
020. Favourite snack: Banana kick
021. Favourite fruit: Watermelon, melon (Sweet ones)
022. Favourite Colour: Blue
023. Favourite clothing style: whatever i like
024. Most loved Posessions: clothes, shoes, camera, bag
025. Movie you remember most: The movie i watched recently – The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor...phew
026. My good points: i wonder what they are?
027. My bad points: my mood changes really fast 
028. My charm points: hmm i wonder what?
029. Complex: My hair grows so fast lately
030. Things you do in your spare time: Sleep
031. Skill: Malttukppakgi [a korean game]
032. Habit: Biting the skin around my fingernails
033. Thing you want to do for the person you love: Take her on a drive to the beach early in the morning
034. Thing you want to do with the person you love: Couple ring (never did it before)
035. Favourite Animal: Puppy
036. Animal you hate: creepy ones
037. Wearing right now: training/sweat pants
038. Favourite Foreign Actor: Angelina Jolie, Elisha Cuthbert
039. Shampoo used: what they gave me at the shops
040. When are you most annoyed: When people are loud while I’m sleeping
041. Feeling after looking at a mirror: my skin… hyu~
042. How do you feel about yourself: What am I meant to write her
043. How did you meet a currently close friend? : What are you saying?
044. Things you always carry around with you: Ipod, sunglasses, lyrics book
045. Last months cellphone bill: Do you want to give me a cellphone?
046. Drinking limit: I’ll tell you when I’m 20
047. Drinking habit: I’ll tell you when I’m 20
048. Runaway home experiences: ...
049. What do you want to say to your parents? : I love you
050. Your Mums dream: I knew it.. but I can’t remember
051. Your personality: Bright, playful, and like to bug people
052. Longest time you waited for someone: Back then I was the one who was always late
053. Do you keep your promises well? Yes
054. Places you met your friends: Back then.. game room, Seohyun Station
055. Bed time: 2~3 o clock
056. When do you hate your parents most: Never
057. How do you express your happiness? Do something cute, do some weird dance kekeke
058. How many flowers did you receive from the opposite sex? None other than the ones from my graduation ceremony
059. How many times you’ve dated: Take a guess
060. Where do you go when you meet guy friends: Billiard Room, Internet Cafe
061. Favourite character: none
062. Family: mum, dad, younger sister
063. When the person you like is angry: I get angry too for the time being
064. If the person you like wants to break up with you: If I’m crazily in love with her I’d hold on.
065. If the person you like wants to kiss you: I would
066. How do you feel when the person you love leaves you: its so sad
067. What do you have do after writing this: meeting with the Stage Director
068. Items next to you: Minhwan’s notebook, audiocard
069. Items on your bed: I’m on the sofa right now
070. A memorable CF: Hwang Jeongeum’s Handphone CF
071. Drama you’re into lately: none
072. My first impression by other people: I look like a kind person who studies really hard
073. Celebrities you resemble: Kangin, TOP and Jang Geunseok
074. Favourite Sport: Soccer and basketball
075. Current Hairstyle: short
076. Favourite Season: Winter
077. Things in your bag: Sunglasses, lyrics book, propolis
078. Bank account: They took mine away
079. When do you feel cheap? I cant remember when but its happened
080. Friend you dislike most: well I don’t meet my friends now so..
081. Current worries? 2nd Album
082. Dream you dream often? None
083. Thing you want? Car driver’s license
084. Place you want to go? New zealand
086. Your ideal girl? Innocent with a slight charm
087. Do you like cute girls? sometimes
088. Tough or cute guys? Guys.. that can relate to me
089. Celebrity you want to be like? Mm.. I want to find my own style
090. How do you approach the person you like? At first I cant easily talk to them
091. How do you confess your feelings to the person you like? It differs for each person
092. Skinny or chubby girls? In between
093. Skinny and weak guys, Average guy, muscular guy, or big guy? Why do you keep asking about guys – am I some pervert
094. Person precious to you: there is someone
095. Something you always buy to eat / drink when you out: Caramel Macchiato
096. Favourite icecream from baskin n robbins? Mister Almond
097. If you were reborn on this world? Just like now
098. How much longer do you want to live? Until my kids have children
099. Sites you visit often: Cyworld, Daum 100. How did you feel about this
100  Truths: mm.. slightly tiring

lol <3 xD

For 희 영 (hee young)

hey my lovely dongsaeng named hee young wheerrrrreeee arrrrrrreeee yyyooouuuuu ? *looks around* xD

im here now ^ ^ but where are you eh ? =.=`
mianhae im not often online because im busy with my exam =.=` now just online for a while. i read your post about me on your blog..mianhae if you feel sad or lonely because of me > <`
i miss you too *hugs*

now where are you ? haih..when i'm online you're offline..when i'm offline you're online lol x'D

wish me luck and have a good score on my exam..okay ? and after that i will do your request ;p

btw i miss you my crazy partner..hhaha~ let's we crazy around again later xD lol

comment here if you're online ok ? :D

FT.ISLAND ^O^

im falling in love with them since the first time i hear their songs *-*
the first song that i hear from FT.Island is titled 'i hope' :D that time i'm so hopeless because of something..then when i hear that song..i don't know why my spirit is appear again >_<
i like that song so much <3

because of that song..i become curious with FT.Island so i tried to search and hear all song of FT.Island~
and omg i like ALL of their songs~!
all of their songs is really very nice *-* and i love hongki oppa's voice. make me melted hhaha xD

then i become their BIGGEST FANS xP

do you like FT.Island too same like me ? if yes *high five* xD
if not *knock your head* xP
you'll regret if you never hear their song :3

ok~ now i'll tell you about FT.Island (y)

FT.Island = Five Treasure Island.
why named FT.Island ? because the members is five people~ and they all my treasure..lol xP
i think it's because the five of them is the treasure for all primadona ;) well..actually i dont really know the reason hhehe.

and maybe FT.Island's fans called 'Primadona' because all prims is their primadona hhehe ;D

the members of FT.Island is :

1). Lee Hong Ki

Position: Lead Vocal
Nickname: Cute Rebellion
D.O.B: March 2, 1990
Blood Type: A
Height: 176 cm
Weight: 60 kg
Best Feature: Smile
Talents: Singing, Playing Soccer
Hobbies: Singing, Listening to music, Soccer, Internet, Cooking

2). Lee Jae Jin

Position: Bass Guitar
Nickname: Volunteer
D.O.B: December 17, 1990
Blood Type: A
Height: 177 cm
Weight: 58 kg
Best Feature: Lips
Talents: Bass Guitar, Listening to traditional music
Hobbies: Internet, Questioning

3). Song Seung Hyun

Position: Vocalist, Main Rapper, Guitar
D.O.B: August 21, 1992
Height: 180cm
Weight: 60kg
(he's the newest member after won bin oppa leave FTI)

4). Choi Jong Hyun

Position: Leader, Guitar & Piano
Nickname: Sexy Jonghun
D.O.B: March 7, 1990
Blood Type: A
Height: 178 cm
Weight: 61 kg
Best Feature: Nose
Talents: Piano
Hobbies: Listening to music, Internet

5). Choi Min Hwan

Position: Drums
Nickname: 민둥이
D.O.B: November 11, 1992
Blood Type: A
Height: 171 cm
Weight: 55 kg
Best Feature: Cuteness
Talents: Drums, Eating chicken
Hobbies: Listening to music, Internet
Former Member

they all is the members of FT.Island now~
but, don't forget one again :

*) Oh Won Bin

 

Position: Vocal, Guitar (ex)
Nickname: Mischievous Wonbin
D.O.B: March 26, 1990
Blood Type: O
Height: 180 cm
Weight: 63 kg
Best Feature: Dimples, Smile
Talents: Martial arts, Harmonica
Hobbies: Sports, Reading, Listening to music



(source: http://www.fanpop.com/clubs/kpop/articles/113915/title/ft-island-members-profile)



nah~i have told you all FTI's members. what do u think ? ^-^