he's my love..his name is ranmaru izumi hiragi but i call him "green eyes" and he call me "barbie eyes" lol :')
why like that ? it's a secret about me and him.
he's the one who really understand me. he can make me laugh and smile if i'm sad and he's always make my days in love and happy everyday. but now he cant do that anymore ..
he leave me because of his disease..he's sick "leukemia" cancer ..
he said he just don't want to make me sad if he "go from this world" cz his doctor said he don't have a long time to life anymore.
it's unfair.
he's always hide his problem from all, also hide his problem from me, he always save his problem alone.
i remember his words : "my problem is my problem..and ur problem is my problem"
it's not fair, right ?
he don't want me to hide my problem from him..but he don't want to tell his problem to me ..
he ever said : "i just want to give you happiness..i don't want to make you feel sad or hurt."
how can i happy if he is not happy ?
he's go to the other country for surgery with his parent..and his parent forbid him to use handphone, notebook or computer. no more internet connection..i lost him.
i don't even know about his condition now ..
i really miss him. i'm crying everytime i remember him. maybe it's sounds crazy if i tell u that actually i never meet him. yeah..we just know and talk with each other through internet. my first relashionship is long distance relationship..he's in japan and im in indonesia~ but don't laugh at it. u never feel it so u wont understand :') i hope one day i can meet with him but now it's impossible..cz he ady leave this world forever ..
i still love him..even if i don't know where's him now and forever my feeling to him will not change. although maybe one day i'll falling in love with someone else again but he will still have his own place in my heart..as the beautiful memories .. :')
T_T
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